Another week, Another dr. appointment

I hope ya'll don't mind my wonderful prego updates, but I know there are a few out there who want to stay updated and this is the easiest way. I went back to the dr. yesterday and I had dilated to 2cm and my cervix is soft so...no new freedom that I was hoping to regain. In fact, he increased my medicine to the full dosage of 5mg and said I HAVE TO REST!!! Isn't it funny how in normal life for a dr. to tell you to rest for 3+ weeks, you would be thrilled. And I feel like it's a death sentence. Upside, I DO get a sweet, cuddly baby at the end of this, but sometimes it is hard to remember that and not be selfish and want to go out. I am typically such a goer that this is hard. I did have a small freak out on the way home just because I had heard great stories about people that have delivered this early and everything was fine, but this is not the ideal situation and I am scared. There is said it-happy! I am freaking out with the idea of such a tiny baby and your mind can go wild with the ideas of what could happen. Jack's delivery was perfect. Quick, not too painful and he was healthy and that was it. I am fearful that Max's will come with some level of drama and that worries me. On top of the freak out that now is normal to me, the medicine made me very shaky and I got a terrible headache. I was also feeling a lot of contractions after we left the dr. but I figured it was b/c of the drama and crying hysterically. Unfortunately, the contractions only got more frequent/stronger so this morning we had to go back to the dr. and make sure everything was ok. He changed my medicine (which he thinks won't cause me to shake-YEAH!!!) and the dosage is alot higher. The contractions didn't cause me to dilate so I was allowed to come home and just monitor them. I am still at this moment having what I feel like are pretty strong contractions but they are irregular and not as bad as last night/this morning. THank you again for all the prayers, comments, emails, and calls. I feel very loved and supported!! Please pray for 2 more weeks and a very healthy little boy!! 14 days and I am suppose to come off the medicine (which means more than likely Max will arrive!!!) If this is characteristic of his personality, I am in a lot of trouble!! Love to you all!!